John commits suicide

Today I heard the unfortunate news of brother's suicide.  He came down 3 weeks ago and wanted mother to give  up all her money to him. Obviously mother refused  saying her money has been significantly reduced due to his spending. The next day he was found dead. John has ruined himself and his family.  His poor actions reflects badly on our family.  He misused all our money through his gambling and drinking, he disobeyed mother's wishes by leaving college and his failure to study law. However I did not expect John to commit suicide. I was horrified when I heard the news but i did not shed one tear nor Eliza. Mother on the other hand has suffered a stroke due to this devastating death.  Mother was his saviour she helped him out of his debts and helped him out of jail. However he still returned to his routine of bad habits. He ruined mother, stole her money and was very selfish. I am thankful now because we wont have to worry about money being spent from mother's fortune.  John was a burden on our family he disturbed our family name and left us in shame. Am I suppose to feel melancholy over his death? I don’t know . After all he was my brother. Yes  indeed  a dark shadow has  formed over Gateshead, but I don’t know whether to be sad because his selfish ways destroyed his own life.